Broken down
Ground down
Under constant pressure
Compressing
Aged out
Will I ever again
Be gainfully
Employed?
Creaking and grimacing
With those first
Couple steps
Upon rising
Just fine after that
But too late
First impressions
Are a bitch
Aged out
Too much
Experience?
Yes
And I get it
But still
Being looked at
By millennials
Like I am about to die
A relic
Or a threat
To their authority
And then
Oh, and then
Having been
A stay at home dad
For three years
Baby Boomers
look at me
As suspect
Useless
Fucking hippy
Slacker on the dole
Even women
Who should understand
How hard
Raising children
And keeping them
From burning
down the house
Is.
Even women
Think of of
Stay at home parenting
As lazy,
At least when
Men do it.
I am coming close
Coming close
Oh Universe
Coming close
To just admitting
Surrendering
to the fact
That I cannot
Save myself
Save my family
I am failing
And will continue to
Fail
My methods
No longer are relevant
To the talents
i still possess
That it is time
To surrender
To admit I cannot save
Myself
And to implore
The universe
To decide
If I am worth saving,
If I am worth redeeming
Worth saving
And if so
To send the cavalry
The samaritan
The hand up
Not a hand out
To send them now
As I am about
To let go
To release all control
And fall
Fall
To be caught
Or not.
Great post 🙂
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